Fear

There are some things that are important for me to do that I can’t seem to get done. It has been driving me crazy, and I think I may have figured it out. It is fear that is holding me back: fear of the unknown, fear that I will not do it right, fear of not succeeding, fear of looking stupid. It seems that every fear I have ever had is doing an encore performance directly in my face right now.

I know the solution is to face these fears and get stuff done. And I also know that this is way easier to say than to do.

I know I am getting hung up on thinking about what the worst thing that could happen is, and assuming that it will, indeed, happen. I need a new thought process here.

So I am going to take the advice of a good friend. He says if that is where my brain wants to go, then let it go there. But if that is where it goes, then I must also think about the opposite, which would be to think about the best thing that could happen. And then I must realize that what will actually happen is probably somewhere in between the best and the worst case.

I have started to try to apply this thinking to the projects that I have at hand. I know that “started to try” may seem a little wishy-washy, but I am here to tell you that this isn’t easy, so “start to try” is the best I can do at this point. I have come to realize that the best I can do is the best I can do, and it is enough.

So I am working on facing my fears, and getting things done in spite of them. Wish me luck.

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